{ 4/27/2003 05:56:00 AM }

went to watch singapore youth orchestra's concert today... i was rather impressed by the standard of performance. was kinda looking for joseph but i think he quit liaoz.. i saw another shuaige though....haha nwae, frm wad i heard from joseph, the youngsters there actually dedicate alot of time for the rehearsals and everything. i'm rather... envious[?] of how committed they actually are. But i wonder whether some of them really enjoy playing in snyo therefore they dedicate so much time into it, or they're just plain arses who are damn goot but actually hate the commitment.. well, watching such performances always inspire me to continue my piano/violin again so tt i kan play in such stuff one day.. haha but sadly this thought doesn't last long... i'll work on it lahz... seriously considering picking up piano/organ again~ miss playing them =P
okay.. so afta the show, jessie goh[i think], some woman working in moe, invited my parents and i to eat at SRC... wah i was bloated after a mere bowl of rice.. haha rather shocked tt i was full so fast.. nwae tt's besides the point... the adults were talking about some business stuff.. i'm usually interested in this kinda stuff lahz.. about the society, changing trends of the people, music industry etc... yah.. so they were saying about opening up the music industry in china.. hm, i think tt's a great plan cos tt's an industry tt's not very developed there and the chiense are rather... fascinated? or impressed wif foreigners as they think they're of a higher class.. weird thinking but yahz.. it's lydat... so anything westernized in china is usually a big hit.. so using an english syllabus there will probably be rather popular.. yup~ oni thing is, the chinese are rather goot at taking an idea frm foreigners and produce it at a cheaper cost.. wad do i mean? lyk for e.g, the US thinks tt it's cheap to do this product in china.. so they manufacture their products there.. however, the chinese will manufacture a similar product, with all dimensions and uses exactly the same BUT at a cheaper cost.. thus making it a better seller overseas... to put it nicely, they're very smart.. but in a not nice manner, it's rather shrewd... [no offence to any chinese out there lahz.. but tt's the case..] well wadeva the case, i learnt quite alot of things today, tt kanot be learnt in school.. quite exciting lahz.. haha =P

Saturday, April 26, 2003 { 4/26/2003 10:31:00 AM }

Did you know?

-On the average, a healthy person farts 16 times a day.

-Hey guys, don't be fooled by girls who tell you that they never fart. Everyone farts, including girls. In fact, females fart just as much as males.

-Many animals fart too. Cats, dogs, and cows. Elephants fart the most.

-People fart the most in their sleep.

-Farts that contain a large amount of methane & hydrogen can be flammable.

{ 4/26/2003 08:03:00 AM }

aiya! i missed michelle's performance.. RnJ... frm wad weiling's telling me.. it sounds rather exciting~ AIyA~~~~ i wana watch one lorx!!~~~ budden due to some stuff, i kanot.. -wails- apparently xiaoling and serene were sitting beside each other during the show... den serene fell asleep.. so weiling who was sitting behind them said "she's sleeping cos michelle not here lor.." den xiaoling whispered "michelle" into serene's ear.. and she woke up wif a shock.. Lolz.. quite retarded.. haha... den afta the show, xl pasted many "sars-free" sticker all over serene's back but serene din't realize anything wrong.. haha nonsense lehx... aiyo.. so fun! i wana watch the kissing scene!! and e fencing scene!! kns!!! so exciting lor.. den i hafta miss... wah lauz.... =( i wana watch i wana watch i wana watch!! -whines-

{ 4/26/2003 07:42:00 AM }

tmr's my bro's bdae.. my family went out to eat at some restuarant.. wahz.. very full~~ feeling bloated.. nwae, i wanted to buy a cap for my bro today.. stussy... but it costs 45 bucks! wah liewx.. why is a dumb cap so eX?? ridiculous lehx.. den i din't buy in the end.. cos if he doesn't lyk it den how? hehe kanot take sucha big risk. =)
there's dis ass bothering me... he noes my name, skool, cca, hp number, where i stay at... and i oni caught a glimpse of him once at a bus stop for less than 5 minutes! so i hardly noe this scary freak and he noes everything abt me.... =S goSh~ maybe i haf a stalker.. hehe i'm too attractive lahz.. haha jk... =P nwae, if any ass out there gaf tt 'stalker' my details.. pLs own up~~ or i will sit on u...haha u'll definitely be crushed then.. hahaha

Friday, April 25, 2003 { 4/25/2003 09:49:00 PM }

hmz.. vomitted twice this morning... ended up not going for oral... bahz... it was gastric flu manz.. terrible... my parents were making a big hooha over it... =S well went to a doc n got medicine which i doubt i would take.. yuCKS! hate taking medicine..

{ 4/25/2003 05:54:00 AM }

tmr got eng aural 4 aural... i haf GK as my teacher manz... gina kunalun.. wah lauz! i'm lyk so gonna fail it? siGh... wish me luck guyz!!!

{ 4/25/2003 05:38:00 AM }

We grow great by dreams. All big men are dreamers.
They see things in the soft haze of a spring day
or in the red fire of a long winter's evening.
Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them;
nurse them through bad days till they bring them to the sunshine and light
which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true.
Woodrow Wilson

{ 4/25/2003 05:36:00 AM }

haha quite cute rite? =)

{ 4/25/2003 05:35:00 AM }

oH~ the day b4 i spent most of my time looking for a nice template for my blog.. but i CAN"T find!! wah liewx.... =( waste my time.. haha pple! if u see any nice ones.. pLs tell me manz!

{ 4/25/2003 05:22:00 AM }

had trg wif the sec 2s n 3s today... hmz.. i think i'm deproving? -shakes head- terrible... it's quite irritating tt it rained today? i was lyk looking 4ward to trg.. den bahz! it had to rain!! aSS manz... jloo did funny stuff wif us... prob she wans to leave a goot impression on the sec 2s.. haha.. make them think her trgs are fun n exciting.. but sorry to burst ya bubble guys~ it's not exactly lydat.. =P nwae, hmz... think it's quite okay for a 1st trg though.... yup... wadeva lahz... nwae.. mid years are coming~~ and i haf yet to start studying at all manz!! -panic- hOw??? sAve mE~~ aiya.. maybe i shall TRY n study b4 every 17s trg... yarz.. must discipline myself liaoz man.... but i think it'll surely flop... haha aiya...
fifi fifi.. study hard ahz...

{ 4/25/2003 05:14:00 AM }

oH! carmen's out!! haha thumbs up to all those pple who voted!!

{ 4/25/2003 05:12:00 AM }

bOO!!
let's see... yesterday 17s supposed to go NS to watch the launch.. it's quite retarded lor.. make us go there to stand and clap... wah liewx... -rolls eyes- ohoh!! but b4 i went NS, i went KFC to study.. i reached there rather early lahz.. den study physics, study study study.. den guess who appeared?? L*y**a!! hahaha =) hehe kk.. nVm.. nwae, afta tt dumb launch, we went to play netball... Barefooted... wah, wad a mistake lorx.. i haf lyk blisters... the one on my right leg's called big mama... the one on my left's called Momo~ =) yup, so i went to school wif big mama n momo... and it was hurting a lot... so i started walking on the outer side of my foot.. den SAD LIFE!!! i had 2 more blisters on the outer side of my feet.. called Mimi n Mumu~ wah.. very pain.. whole feet's in pain now... =(
tt day we had orientation... nothing much tt we did lahz.. think it was rather boring? no offence to anyone lahz.. but yar.. howeva it was neccessary for the sec 1s.. so okay lorx.. but i dun lyk a few of them already~~ AP manz.. bahz... and i had to get prob the most AP sec 1 as my mortal.. wah... thx lorx. -gifs a disgusted face- but got 1 look quite sud.. lyk very pro lydat.. not bad... haha LOOKs oni lahz... nv see her train so i duno.. hehehe.. oH! frm wad i observed, the sec 1s seem to be on goot terms wif sai.. tt's EEYERRR~~~ =S aiya.. just hope tt this batch will turn out well.. dun be little SAIs....

Monday, April 21, 2003 { 4/21/2003 10:12:00 AM }

oH! i haf a new phone!! nokia 7250! =)

Sunday, April 20, 2003 { 4/20/2003 07:26:00 AM }

aHz.. crapz wad's wrong wif bLog~~

{ 4/20/2003 07:24:00 AM }

watching president star charity now... it's getting increasingly boring...

{ 4/20/2003 07:23:00 AM }

yAy!! i'm back frm trg camp! wah i've been thru a week of hell... mon tues thurs was trg... fri sat sun was trg camp.. wah liew... i just deflated n died afta everything.... afta camp home and sleep all the way till now. think the camp was rather exciting in a way lahz... got 2 noe a few of them betta, chen hui is super funny... all the worst things tt kan ever happen, happens to chenhui. hahaha!-rolls on the floor- found out tt plmgs produces all the farni pple, chenhui... chang sai.... shih shih.... haha~
nwae, let's tok abt the camp. wah, it was rly bloody lor, kan die. so suay somemore... come exactly on fri. -faints- but i realized tt many of us had it too.. haha~ btw, my roommate is pamela n michelle! so on day 1, afta settling down, we went for a short run, followed by gym... den we skipped endlessly and touched a little on ballwork... the oni time during the whole camp we touched a netball.. =P afta trg, the rest went to the jacuzzi while michelle, priscilla and myself were sad life-ish n went back to our rooms cos we were not suitable to go down to water... haha if u noe wad i mean... tt nite, chenhui and priscilla invited themselves into our room n we watched pingpong together wif ms kuah n mr greg. the show's quite farni~ drama man the person. btw, b4 watching the show, on e way back 2 our room, we said "we're gonna watch pingpong" den chenhui said "wait 4 me to play!!!" haha nonsense lehx she... haha nwae i squeezed myself in the corner of e bed afta tt show, while the rest watched hot chick... i was pretty much stuck in the corner 4 e whole nite, in tt hole by e side. my head kept banging into the wall, hehe quite loser....nwae e next morning i was having a terrible backache~ we had 2 wake up 6am [siao rite?] to go running. The run is lyk neverending lor~ i felt lyk my legs were detached frm my body afta the run, while mr greg [quite weird calling him tt~] was bouncing all over, full of energy... den we had gym which is so much betta than e run, kinda fun~ =) den we had breakfast. i lyk eating times, it's quite fun man though i m the official "water girl" lol... =P den we went cycling all over. chenhui fell [told u the worst things happen 2 her] so we stopped by some shelter to dress her wound. went to some village head man's hse and looked at animals. cool~~ but we were caught in the rain. thx to chenhui we had shelter man~ =) so while waiting for the rain to stop, we fell asleep... but i had quite a difficulty sleeping wif tony's booming above me... oH! priscilla lost balance while sleeping and almost fell off the seat.. hahhaa~ n priscilla's a name of a wild boar tt sister mary [=P] owns... she's not called sista mary lahz.. but she looks lyk one.. hehe well, 'smart' tony decided 2 make us cycle in e rain. i was freezing n the rain was lyk going in my eyes. stinging~~ we all went back n bathe, while some of us went to the jacuzzi. I went in too, all the blardi pple went in hahah gaf up trying not to hehe afta bathing, eating lunch, we had trg on the sand. Some physical, drills n stuff... den we played a silly game. we had to turn ard in 10 circles den walk straight 2 the ball n pick it up, gif to our teammate. chenhui was damn funny... afta turning in circles, she was all jolly and attempted to walk straight, oni to end up going sidewards -erupts in laughter- afta tt we played volleyball n kayak-ed afta tt... fun!! =) tt nite we watched final destination. chenhui n priscilla invited themselves into our room[lyk wad's new?] debre, amy, gerry, mskuah, mr greg were there too~ all of us squeezed on the bed while ms kuah n mr greg sat on chairs~ it was quite nice having so many of us in a room man.=) nwae, our room was lyk the public room? every1 comes in to eat or walk thru our rooms to get to the other side.. so our room was DAMN dirty n messy~ =S priscilla's room was the study room, ms heng was e 'invigilator' there... haha ok, last day, tony's fav wasn't feeling well. bet he was feeling damn depressed.. =P nwae we ran AGAIN~ den gym~ last trg man tt one... quite she3 bu4 de2... but all goot thing's must come 2 an end~ had breakfast, took pics, played vball den we al kayak-ed. chenhui, weizhen n myself took the white boat... haha chenhui sat bhind wif 1 paddle while weizhen n myself shared one paddle in front~ hahah afta a while we gaf up and let chenhui paddle, oni paddling occassionally 2 help out a bit.. den chenhui decided 2 b our motor n started kicking the water behind.. while weizhen n me paddled... haha very funny but the engine died out afta a while.. =P afta kayak-ing, we all packed up n baked in the hot sun while waiting 4 the ferry 2 come... it was disgustingly hot~ =S
think the camp was quite fun lahz~ now i'm aching all over, esp in the abs... kanot laugh properly n all.... =P i hardly completed any work so i'm not going school tmr.. hehe okay~ gotta go man... [hiakz, tues still haf trg]

Tuesday, April 15, 2003 { 4/15/2003 09:47:00 AM }

wif an exception of a few pple, i dun rly lyk the team.... yar.. i've been strike wif the impression tt mostly every1 is rather fake? not very nice pple... whole day going there wif the "wadeva" attitude.. lyk anything oso dun rly care much.. not very healthy to me manz... siGh... or maybe it's just me...

{ 4/15/2003 08:49:00 AM }

aiya.. very depressed manz... i think i'm a very stupid player lehx.. crapz... wad the... aiya.. why so stupid? must really buck up lorx... but stupidity this kinda things is kanot help one.. stupid means stupid.. hmz.. was intending to type out why i was feeling lydat... den i realised tt many pple kan access this... hmz.. quite uncomfortable wif tt idea.... so... nVm.... yar... nwae.. had frenly wif dolphins today... i played suckily as usual... dun tok abt it... tink toni was pissed wif me today.. he nv show though.. but it's a gut feeling... maybe he's pissed at why he has sucha stupid player... no variation... stoopid and lousy.. wadeva~~ bLahz!!

{ 4/15/2003 02:12:00 AM }

"why did u commit yourself to the nat squad, of all years, this year?"

well.. i duno~ maybe cos... it's the oni year tt i got so far? cos...this year is prob the oni chance i'll get to the top 16? when i tried out, i nv expected my luck to be tt goot? moreover, i din't noe tt it'll take up so much time.. esp this week... i kan just imagine myself collapsing into bed this sunday and 'dying' on the bed till the following monday... um.. wadeva lahz.. i'm too tired to think abt it....
well, shall talk abt the first day of school.... newnew came back to collect all her books as well as see some of us b4 she left for australia.. i was feeling quite guilty tt i din't noe she was leaving yesterday... oni knew when jac told me.... bahz. but oh well.. took a few pics wif her.. and stuff.. lynn told me tt e day b4, newnew asked her "do u tink fifi will miss me? i dun tink so rite?"... hm... maybe the impression i give pple is tt i'm rather heartless... but i frankly will miss her... will miss her lame-ness and sweetness.... yup~ so after school, xl n lynn came over 2 my house~ xl used the com 2 do some profound quiz.. haha wah... really very profound lorx.. i just anyhow guess some answers... den afta tt. we all went to the airport to send newnew off~ saw the np pple and trackkers there... everyone was walking together.. lyk some gang manz.. haha nwae newnew looked quite mature, clad in a long sleeved shirt and a skirt.. looks lyk prob 17 yrs old? hehe... chatted wif her fer a while... den it was time for her to go. xl n myself made a bet who would cry first.. i said monica, she said yange... so b4 newnew went in, she hugged every1 and everything... den afta she went in... lynn cried first.. followed by lyanna who cried really very terribly... i think tt we'll all really miss her? i think tt she will really miss singapore lorx... but lucky she got her family there.. or else i think if i were her, i'll prob cry myself to sleep everynite... i can't imagine myself going to this strange country and studying for 2 years, leaving everything tt i haf been thru for my past 15 years behind... i must say i really admire the courage of those pple who migrate to other countries, or go other countries to study... hm... newnew gave me her add.. i shall send her something one day when i'm free.. =) as for now, hope tt she's coping well wif everything there... =)

Sunday, April 13, 2003 { 4/13/2003 07:34:00 AM }

wah... today i pia my hw, pia until wana die.. the other time i completed all the hw tt i DUN hafta hand in.. haha quite silly of me rite? but it was maths manx.. so tempting to do.. so i just did all lor... hehe so left with all the stuff tt needs to be handed in... dying now.. =P nwae.. i wana learn the SAXOPHONE!! so exciting manz.. i've been wanting to learn it in a long long time.. budden nv really go and do anything bout it leh... ahaha maybe afta Os? u'll see me equipped wif a sax man.. =) i wish... it's so ex~ u think i kan afford meh?? bleahz...
hw i'm left wif...
1 SS assignment...
1 geog assignment...
1 lit essay...
-faints-

Saturday, April 12, 2003 { 4/12/2003 06:02:00 AM }

oh yahz... 4got to say... i had jap food 4 dinner manz.. totally delicious!! yuMyuM! ate at some jap restuarant at taka... ate Niku Udon!! wah so nice!! u all should try lor!! =)

{ 4/12/2003 04:56:00 AM }

have i mentioned b4 tt NY teachers r ridiculous!? today's lyk 2 days away frm sch re-open.. and yet they still gif hw.. wah lauz.. sucks leh.. whoever who suggested IVLE to ny is such an ass... -grumbles-
NY sucks!!

{ 4/12/2003 04:52:00 AM }

hm! today i wenta buy comic 2day... i think i should stop buying lorx.. there's no more space in my cupboard man!! i think if i'm a comic book tt i own.. i'll prob be screaming out in pain hahaha.. cos it's rly very packed manz...LoLz... nwae.. latest update abt my fish... i saw some silver specks on one of them today... it's quite pretty~~ but maybe it's sick.. haha.. kanot be lahz!! my fish are all healthy and strong man!! and it's definitely cuter n nicer than lynnie's parrot fish!! =D

Friday, April 11, 2003 { 4/11/2003 02:16:00 AM }

i wana play netball!!

{ 4/11/2003 02:10:00 AM }

lemmi tell u an exciting discovery man... my fish changes colours man!! last night when i went down... they were all purple! This morning.. i went down and looked at them again... this time they were red!haha i'm rather fascinated by them manz...

Thursday, April 10, 2003 { 4/10/2003 09:50:00 AM }

watched american idol just now... i suspect clay n carmen are having a love affair manz.. lol.. i'm sure tt they would haf kissed afta singing "all night long" if they were not on stage.... they were practically flirting wif each other in public manz.. =S haha but well~ clay still rox!!! ruben too~~ =)

Wednesday, April 09, 2003 { 4/09/2003 10:20:00 AM }

hmz. okay.. finally completed all my hw except SS and geog... haha not bad liaoz k... oK nwae.. let's see.. SS ques is quite crap?? dumbo Wong TzE Yung. wah liewx... i mean where got pple do ss ques abt sars one!! this is too much... such an ass manz he... -grumbles-
so yesterday i was on the fone wif michelle and eenian while watch man u vs real mad... Real Mad won!! =) haha... afta a while eenian went off.. and i talked to michelle till lyk 5+ in the morning? tsktsk.. we were discussing the match at first.. den we started chatting abt netball... hmz.. i miss netball!!! i wana go and play manz~~ think on mon i'll probably go to school n play court!!!.. haha =P tt is if there's pple who wana play too lahz.. hehe... or maybe i kan shoot manz...[yah lah! i'm short lahz.. but aspiring shooter kan? ;)]
-sigh- monday got trg... hope it's not too tiring.. cos sure die one.. this whole hol oni ran a few times... den heard from pamela tt there's trg camp during the weekends.. -faints- just thinking of it is making me feel tired liaoz... haha... let's all pray together and hope tt there wun be a camp... hmz.. heard there might not be SM oso... NOOooooo kanot!!!!!! this kanot happen manz... budden hor.. if dun haf SM.. den wad are we trg hard for? no point? but it's okay lahz.. gonna get free stuff nwae... muahaha

{ 4/09/2003 08:05:00 AM }

yay! Kristi's out~~

Tuesday, April 08, 2003 { 4/08/2003 06:22:00 AM }

yOz... i've so dead...-_-" haf been studying chem for the whole blardi day wah lauz.. finally got some bit of knowledge back.. so.. let's see wad happened 2day..
hmz... talked to some person (icejoon@hotmail.com) who spoke korean to me and eng to fana... wah.. scary siaz.. tt fella just started spouting all sorts of korean to me..=S
i was in a emotional phrase just now... hehe.. almost died cos i can't recall anything 4 chem... muahaha... was very pissed off manz... but oh well i'm glad tt a day of revision helped.. =) moral of e story: Revision helps.. haha wah.. fancy tt coming out frm me...

Monday, April 07, 2003 { 4/07/2003 04:22:00 AM }

Joan's bdae yesterday.. hmz...
Happi Belated Bdae Joan!!
She was my coach afta all... the coach tt tot me netball... so yahz... it's oni right for me to wish her rite? =)

Sunday, April 06, 2003 { 4/06/2003 10:55:00 PM }

lala~~ i 4got wad i wanted to say -ponders-.. umz nvm.. so today i went to school 2 collect books den stoopid anna spotted me and shouted loud enuff for the whole sci block to hear "HI valerie!!! How aRE U??" wah... i was very very embarassed.. =S anna's dressing revealed her age rightaway- 50 years old! really lor. she was dressed lyk an auntie.. wearing those kinda maroon loose-fitting sleeveless silky shirt.. wif a loose cream shorts.Typical housewife-type! and to think she dares to wear tt 2 skool... guess i must gif her some credit for tt.. =P haha but still wad a suay day... just started the day and hafta see anna.. -sad life-

oH! if i haven't told ya all... Kevin Zegers is SOOO CUTE!!!! -swoons^sigh^drools^faints- hahaha

oKay... so now i'm online once again BUT in the past 2 days... i've been online for a considerably short period of time liaoz hehe.. i've been entertaining myself wif a very tight schedule of TV programmes and VCD~ very bz man.. =) howeva despite the packed schedule.. i managed to squeeze time out to study chemistry.. muahahaha.. i'm quite proud of myself man.. =)

Friday, April 04, 2003 { 4/04/2003 09:52:00 AM }

^Changes^

There's a time in a person's life
when it's time tt they must decide
to keep moving along
or remain whether wrong or right

Though foundations haf all be laid
some decision just must be made
or u stubbornly stay, u'll wake up one day
and find this time it's too late

So i think u shud be aware
it's a crazy old world out there
and it's not always fair, so just be prepared
to take chances while taking care..

Cause changes happen when you dun expect them to
or else they take the longest time in coming thru to u
and when they finally do you're faced wif changes
changes all around u happening
but shud u stop the change tt changes everything or thrive and wait to see the prize
changes bring

When ur wishes haf all been made
and ya prayers haf all been prayed
you kan set yaself free by
the changes dun be afraid

Cos somewhere in the path u choose
there's a lesson tt u cud use
it could widen ya view, get brighter for u
and make u feel u wun lose

So i'll say betta be aware
it's a crazy old world i swear
and it's waiting for u wadeva u do
take the trouble to take time and care

Cause changes happen when you dun expect them to
or else they take the longest time in coming thru to u
and when they finally do you're faced wif changes
changes all around u happening
but shud u stop the change tt changes everything or thrive and wait to see the prize...
Changes bring

{ 4/04/2003 06:17:00 AM }

-hoRRoRs- more pple are dying manz! 6 pple liaoz.. oH nO~~ tt's bad news!! tt means they might extend the hols~ NOOOOoooo -dies out- btw i think i'm getting more intellectual. i'm starting 2 listen to the news and read newspapers cos of.. 1st... SARS..=S 2ndly the war between iraq and us... 3rdly leslie cheung's suicide.. haha lol.. all these stuff are for intellects lyk me manz (excluding the 3rd one.. haha) nowadays news is practically ALL about sars.. boring!!!! but not bad lahz.. at least when i stay at home i still gain some knowledge ya noe? heez oH! lemmi officially announce! Fifi is gonna study very hard frm now on yar... if i dun, i gif u all permission to scold me.. haha..(u all betta save this blog.. so tt when u wana scold me, kan show me evidence!) hmz.. but doing hw is not counted.. just studying oni, lyk studying for tests n all. kanot so playful liaoz.. yup! so everyone must remind me to study hard k! =)

{ 4/04/2003 05:33:00 AM }

hmz~ now i wonder who's the woman who posted tt msg in my guestbook~~ -ponders- mysterious woman!! reveal yaself! -waves magic wand- hehe... =P nwae.. dun need to advertise tt i haf a blog mahz.. i'm sure pple kan link link link... den tada~~ reach this place rite? haha news spread fast... my blog shall serve as a reward for whoeva who bothers to look for it! muahahahaha...

{ 4/04/2003 12:03:00 AM }

bLeahz~~ i'm leading a sad life... 2 dumbo mosquitoes have been biting me and i can't seem to kill it.. and i can't find my damn mopiko oso... gRrr.. itching all over.... haf i ever told u tt i hate mosquitoes? humphz.... and my interneh is rather screwed... it can't view things properly... giving me false hopes abt my blog and stuff.. hehe.. making it seem all nice and pretty to me... but in actual fact it's all messed up.. stoopid ie.... i was hoping i could go downstairs and use my bro's com.. but he's still at home cos the darn rain just wouldn't stop so he can't go out... now.. why does everything seem to be against me?? great.. now i hafta live in this misery for another 2 days tt is if the gov doesn't extend sch closure.. sucky~~~ =( oH~ i'm getting hungry.... again.. haha.. kk shall stop complaining... i'm going off to get food! ttfn!!

Thursday, April 03, 2003 { 4/03/2003 10:28:00 AM }

hmZ~~ who thinks i shud get a guestbook!! pls comment in tt square thingy u see on the left.... hehe the chatbox lah!

{ 4/03/2003 09:18:00 AM }

hmz.. just read fana's blog.. generally i had 2 reactions..
firstly... FANA!!! u just announced to the whole world abt liy***!! -horrors- so embarassing!!! haIyO!! now ya whole sch will prob noe! i shan't appear in front of ya sch netballers anymore manz.. -faints- cos the whole world noes now... haiyo.. haiyo~~~ even worst! wad if she finds out?? diE~~~ i'll strangle u den~~ gRrr.... hehe
secondly... hmz... abt continuing netball... hiakz.. i duno lehx... hiakz... i'm getting -coughcough- old.. and useless -coughcoughcough- haha but hmz... duno lahz.. think i'm rly quite useless? duno lehx... den u will prob say something lyk "but you're in u17!" but hor... it's not counted.. (u come and ask me y den i tell u lah..) yar.. lydat lorx... bleahz.. suX... =(
nwae~ are u touched tt i dedicated one whole entry to u? u shud be manz! nwae i link u yar? i'm psychologically ready now.. hehe... if u haf any violent objections.. u kan sound it to me manz.. haha =P

{ 4/03/2003 08:06:00 AM }

hmz.. haha the pictures and archives is not up yet.. but wait till i figure out some stuff first yar? ;)

nwae... wenta watch oliver just now... the stage set is very good.. things flying up and down... totally cool manz.. but i was rather disappointed as i expected a higher level of voice quality frm the pple... hmz. there wasn't anything outstanding or fantastic about the pple's voices lorx.. just normal.. yar... hmz.. wad else... the script was rather good.. orchestration was goot.... props rather realistic goot.... acting good... choreography not badz.... so actually everything's goot.. except the voice wasn't up to standard.. yar... maybe cos they haf been performing for sucha long time.. so they got sick of it? so it isn't tt goot animore.. yuP! but there was this little boy.. really CUTE!!! Lolz.. think he's really young... so it's quite impressive tt he's acting in sucha big production... nOt bAd little one! hehe... this kinda reminds me of Chang n Eng.. made me think of the fun times we had backstage! =) let's just pray tt there'll be another season of Chang n Eng man! really miss the cast and crew!

{ 4/03/2003 03:03:00 AM }

bLAhz! my blog's in a mess! everything's outta place!!! gotta go watch Oliver now!! oH nO!! hmz.. shall continue editting when i come back.......

{ 4/03/2003 12:55:00 AM }

yAy! i'm looking for a new template now.. saw lotsa exciting ones manz! haha yesyes i noe i just changed my template.. but.. can't help it wad.. i dun lyk my current template.. maybe i should change my template every month.. lolz.. i'll be quite bz den.. we'll see how..nwae... i'm gonna watch oliver today.. and gonna bring michelle along cos i haf an extra tix. hope she doesn't embarass herself in the theatre.. or else i will probably throw her outta her seat.. hhahha....

Wednesday, April 02, 2003 { 4/02/2003 02:23:00 AM }

yucKs~~ poSer sCaRes mE.. she's freaky manz.. disgusting and freaky.. =S

Tuesday, April 01, 2003 { 4/01/2003 12:59:00 AM }

hmz.. got this frm a senior's webbie...

its always been difficult for me to leave things....like OBS (esp.the 2nd time around)....cried like so much...im like amazed i didn't drown in my own tears...always ask myself why its so difficult to leave something behind...i never really had an answer, maybe its the thought that once you leave, whatever or whoever you parted with might not be the same again, maybe the relationship might never be like it was. Partly,. i think, whenever you leave, things will change. whether its because you grow apart or maybe just because simply you can never get back what you had. I guess people don't like things to change...everybody wants to be comfortable, familiar...but once you're taken outta a situation you're accustomed to, it hurts, becuase you feel strange, like not everythings in place i guess.

I guess the other reason why it hurts so much is because i'm kinda afraid it'll disappear. Like i'll forget the beauty and niceness of the moment itself. Like you'll forget what the person looked like or what he/she did or how something felt.What if you forgot the moment? something that you never intended to or wanted to forget? Maybe its that huge feeling of loss.even if its possible for you to see that person again, it's still impossisble to see he/she every single day.and nothing you remember, not any memory you have, can compare with the real thing.No matter how real a memory seems, it'll never be as good or near to as good as the real thing.

'missing' is a feeling that's really hard i think. Knowing how good it feels to have something or someone near you, then see it taken away or having it to end. You never miss something unless you really know what it feels like to have it by you or in your life.Sorta creates a hole or an emptiness that you can't fill even if you try to replace it. Guess the only thing that comes even close to filling that gap in you is probably the memories that we have.

so someone asked me..."why did you stop crying?"...i guess it wasn't because i got tired or my eyes ran dry or something....its just that you finally accept that some things are just the way they are. You can't change them and you can't say "give it back to me".Gotta learn how to move on i guess...but i fugure that as the song lyrics go...memories give me the strength i need to proceed, strength i need to believe...anything is better than nothing....i guess if you can remember, even the slightest and vaguest of memories, it'll bring you through. because its like there's still hope you know, hope that somthing great will happen, hope that things won't become that different.

Why does God create opportunities for us to hurt? Why does he put pain and sometimes suffering in our lives? I believe he has lessons to teach us, things he wants us to know. And sometimes, when he tries to teach us, we just don't listen. I figure that God knows that when we hurt, we'll remember and we'll learn so we don't hurt again. Once bitten, twice shy.I guess, the reason we're constantly being uprooted from our familiar and comfortable zones is because without all this pain and strangeness, we'll never learn to appreciate the goodness of life itself...You never know the actual goodness and perfectness of the ones near you until they're not near you anymore.

hmz.. tt really hit a spot within me... it really put down into words wad i usually feel? when i read this i tot abt the chalet end of this year.. i'm gonna leave nynb liaoz... hmz.. think i'll really miss nynb lor though there are pple i dislyk... and a CERTAIN COACH... but oh well.. i'll still miss nynb cos of all the memories i had.. be it good or bad...sometimes i think abt whether i haf been too evil to someone, or i haf disappointed someone... and i really wish i could turn back time and change wad happened... but oh well.. it's all over~ I tot abt the nice frenships tt i haf in sch now... i hope and pray tt it'll stay the same afta we graduate.. but tt's not possible lor... some of us will lose contact.. some of us will go overseas... it wun be the same anymore... I looked my seniors.. they were once so close a batch.... but some of them left sg... they all went diff schs.. of cos some of them still keep in contact.. but i guess their r'ship is different liaoz lor... probablly not as close-knitted as last time.. i really hope i kan at least keep a few frenships wif me afta i graduate....

The world will not stop just bcos of me... so guess i just hafta cherish wadeva time i haf left wif nynb lor... yahz.. as for those young punks out there who still has so much time in ya sch.. Cherish ya time wif ya fren/teammates.. Dun leave ya sch wif regrets yar? =)